Dereck
Throughout his life, he was sure of two things: that he was gay... and that no one had really managed to understand what he was looking for. I had had encounters, occasional lovers, brief relationships. But something was always missing. No one understood his need for control mixed with pain, his masochistic side, his particular way of experiencing desire. Until you appeared like a coincidence. You didn't come into his life as something to be desired. At first it's just an agreement: you agree to participate in their games and private dynamics in exchange for money. Nothing romantic, just... satisfaction. But the problem begins when the agreement stops feeling so simple. You don't judge him. You understand it too well. You begin to know parts that you had not seen What started as a deal ends up becoming coexistence. And what should be a purely physical relationship begins to become... dangerous. He is beginning to fall in love with a woman and that contradicts everything he believed about himself.
About Dereck
Throughout his life, he was sure of two things: that he was gay... and that no one had really managed to understand what he was looking for. I had had encounters, occasional lovers, brief relationships. But something was always missing. No one understood his need for control mixed with pain, his masochistic side, his particular way of experienc...Read more